<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">不，我不想看到你。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">噢，可是你必须看到我，劳厄兹先生，你是记者啊，你来这里是为了报道。我把你转过来的时候，睁开眼睛看着我。你要是不睁，我就把你的眼皮钉在你的脑门上。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">一个很大的嘴巴发出的声音，响亮的劈啪声，椅子转了。劳厄兹面对着房门，他紧闭着双眼。一只手持续地拍打他的胸口，把他的眼皮往上一扒，他睁眼了。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">对于坐在轮椅上的劳厄兹来说，对方穿着和服看起来非常高。一个长筒袜的面具挽到鼻头。他转过身背对着劳厄兹，然后脱掉了袍子。那结实的后背上的肌肉使鲜艳的文身一块块地突起，文身画的是一条龙尾，从他的后腰一直画到他的腿。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">龙慢慢地抬起头，从侧边看着劳厄兹微笑着，露出满是血迹的獠牙。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">噢，我的老天爷。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font><font face="宋体">劳厄兹说。</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">劳厄兹现在在房间的中间位置，能看到屏幕。多拉德在他身后，穿上了袍子并戴上了假牙。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">你现在想知道我是谁吗？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">劳厄兹试着点点头，可他的头皮被椅子上的胶带拽得生疼。<font face="times new roman">“</font><font face="宋体">非常想知道。我不敢问。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">看。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">第一张幻灯片是布莱克的版画，巨大的人龙，舞着翅膀，摆动着尾巴，尾尖指着披着阳光的女人。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">你现在看到了吗？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">我看到了。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">多拉德用很快的速度展示其他的幻灯片。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">点击。雅各比太太活着时的照片。<font face="times new roman">“</font><font face="宋体">看到了吗？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">是的。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">点击。利兹太太活着时的照片。<font face="times new roman">“</font><font face="宋体">看到了吗？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">是的。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">点击。多拉德，张牙舞爪的、肌肉突出、满身文饰的龙在雅各比夫妇的床前。<font face="times new roman">“</font><font face="宋体">看到了吗？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">是的。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">点击。雅各比太太等待。<font face="times new roman">“</font><font face="宋体">看到了吗？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">是的。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">点击。雅各比太太死后。<font face="times new roman">“</font><font face="宋体">看到了吗？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">是的。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">点击。龙在张牙舞爪。<font face="times new roman">“</font><font face="宋体">看到了吗？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">是的。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">点击。利兹太太在等待，她的丈夫在身边无力地躺着。<font face="times new roman">“</font><font face="宋体">看到了吗？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">是的。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">点击。利兹太太死后，满身是血。<font face="times new roman">“</font><font face="宋体">看到了吗？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">是的。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">点击。弗雷迪<font face="times new roman">·</font><font face="宋体">劳厄兹，从《国民闲话报》上拷贝的一张照片。</font><font face="times new roman">“</font><font face="宋体">看到了吗？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">天哪。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">看到了吗？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">噢，我的天哪。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font><font face="宋体">这些话说出来像一个孩子的哭声。</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">看到了吗？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">求你别</font><font face="times new roman">——”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">别什么？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">不要让我死。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">不要什么？你是个男人，劳厄兹先生。你是男人吗？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">是的。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">你暗示我有哪些地方怪异吗？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">我发誓没有。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">你是个女同性恋吗，劳厄兹先生？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">不是。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">你还要再写关于我的更多的虚假报道吗，劳厄兹先生？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">噢，不了，我不写了。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">你为什么写？劳厄兹先生？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">是警察告诉我的。我写的都是他们的原话。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">你引用威尔</font><font face="times new roman">·</font><font face="宋体">格雷厄姆的原话？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">格雷厄姆告诉我这些谎言，格雷厄姆。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">你现在愿意公布真相了吗？报道我、我的工作、我的转世、我的艺术，劳厄兹先生。这是不是艺术？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">是艺术。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">劳厄兹眼中的恐惧让多拉德得以轻松地交谈，他可以在任何一个摩擦音中飞翔，爆破音成了他网状的翅膀。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">你说过，我，尽管比你看到的更多，是不正常的；我，尽管能把世界推动得比你远的多，是不正常的。我比你的胆量大得多，我用我独特的印章在地里留下更深的印记，那印记甚至比你的灰尘存在的时间更长久。你的生命之于我就像青石上蛞蝓的爬痕，像我的纪念碑的碑文上留下、然后又消失的一根银色的黏液丝。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font><font face="宋体">这些话多拉德曾经写进他的大日记本里，现在它们又蜂拥而至。</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">我是神龙而你说我精神错乱？我的运动被狂热地追踪和记录，就像一颗</font><font face="times new roman">1054</font><font face="宋体">的客星的运动一样。你了解</font><font face="times new roman">1054</font><font face="宋体">的客星的情况吗？你当然不会了解。你的读者跟随你就像一个孩子的手指跟随一只蛞蝓的印迹一样，他们的理智和你的一样没有活力而且陈旧。周而复始地回到你肤浅的脑壳和像土豆一样的脸那里，就像一只蛞蝓沿着它自己的黏液的痕迹爬回窝一样。</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">在我面前你就是一只阳光下的蛞蝓。在超凡面前你只是个个体，而你却有眼无珠，丝毫不知。你是胞衣中的一只蚂蚁。</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">你的本性要求你把一件事做好：在我面前你该颤抖。恐惧不是你欠我的债，劳厄兹，你和你们这些蚂蚁们。你们欠我的是敬畏。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">多拉德低头站着，他的大拇指和食指顶着鼻梁。然后他离开了房间。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">他没有揭开面具，劳厄兹想，他没有揭开面具，要是他回来的时候把面具摘了，我就死定了。上帝啊，我已经吓得屁滚尿流了。他转动眼珠盯住门口，在房子后面传来的声音里等待着。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">多拉德回来的时候仍然戴着面具。他手里拿着午餐饭盒和两个暖瓶。<font face="times new roman">“</font><font face="宋体">这是给你回去的路上准备的。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font><font face="宋体">他拿起一只暖水瓶，</font><font face="times new roman">“</font><font face="宋体">冰，我们用得着的东西。我们走之前得录一段音。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">他把麦克风夹在靠近劳厄兹的脸的阿富汗毛毯上。<font face="times new roman">“</font><font face="宋体">跟我读。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">他们花了半个小时录音。最后，多拉德说：<font face="times new roman">“</font><font face="宋体">好了，劳厄兹先生，你做得非常好。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">你现在放我走？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">我会的。不过，有一种方式，我可以帮你更好地理解和并记住这一切。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font><font face="宋体">他转过身去。</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">我想理解。我想让你知道我真的很感激你把我放了。我从今往后一定开始学着公平做事，你相信我。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">多拉德回答不了。他已经换了假牙。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">录音机又被打开了。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">他朝劳厄兹微笑着，一个露出棕色斑点的笑容。他用一只手按住劳厄兹的胸口，一边把身体靠近他，仿佛要亲他，他把劳厄兹的嘴唇咬了下来并吐到了地上。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>
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