<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">有一种方式。当他想到它时有亵渎了神灵的惶恐，他知道。但是那毕竟是一条出路。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">他在旅馆房间里踱步，在两张床之间，从门到窗。他一边走一边练习说话。当他在句与句之间深深地吸气后并且不慌不忙地说话时，他的发音就没有毛病了。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">他在恐惧的间歇中可以说得很好，可是现在强烈的恐惧又占据了他，让他恶心。接下去将是镇静的状态。他等待着它。当他恢复镇静的时候，他急忙走到电话旁边给布鲁克林博物馆打了个电话。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

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<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">一个初级中学的乐队的学生正在停车场上进入一辆公共汽车。孩子们看到了多拉德往这边走。他必须从他们中间走过去开他自己的车。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">一个斜系着<font face="times new roman">sambrowne</font><font face="宋体">腰带的胖胖的圆脸男孩装出满面愁容的样子，鼓起胸脯在多拉德走过之后晃他的二头肌。两个女孩格格地笑出了声。多拉德在车下经过的时候从车里传出大号的声音，因此他没听到身后的笑声。</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">二十分钟以后他把面包车停在巷子里、离外婆家三百码远的地方。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">他使劲地擦了擦脸，深呼吸了三四次。他左手攥着房间的钥匙，右手握着方向盘。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">一声高亢的哀号从他鼻子里喷出来。再来一声，声音更响了。预备，走。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">面包车箭一样地向前冲的时候把碎石子往后抛得像雨点一样飞。房子在挡风玻璃前摇摇晃晃地迅速逼近。面包车紧急刹车进了院子，车子都横过来了。车没停稳就见多拉德跳下车，一路跑。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">进了门，什么都不看，径直地脚步重重地下楼，直奔地下室。在他的箱子挂锁上乱摸，找他的钥匙。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">箱子的钥匙在楼上。他不给自己任何时间思考。从他的鼻子里发出一声很大的哼声，声音大得足以让他的思想麻木，并且盖住了他上楼的脚步声。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">到了橱柜了，在抽屉里乱翻找钥匙，不去看在床脚处的巨龙的画。<font face="times new roman">“</font><font face="宋体">你在干什么？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">钥匙在哪？钥匙在哪？</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">你在干什么？停下。我从来没见过像你这么令人恶心的龌龊孩子。停下。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">他找钥匙的手慢下来了。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">看，看着我。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">他抓着橱柜的角<font face="times new roman">——</font><font face="宋体">试着不向墙转过身去。可他的头还是不由自主地转了过去，他只能痛苦地把眼睛看别处。</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">你在干什么？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">没干什么。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">电话响了，电话响了，电话响了。他拿起听筒，背对着画。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">嗨，</font><font face="times new roman">d</font><font face="宋体">。你觉得怎么样了？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font><font face="宋体">莱芭</font><font face="times new roman">·</font><font face="宋体">麦克兰的声音。</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">他清了清嗓子。<font face="times new roman">“</font><font face="宋体">还行。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font><font face="宋体">比轻声说还微弱。</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">我打过电话。你办公室的人说你病了</font><font face="times new roman">——</font><font face="宋体">你听起来很不好。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">跟我说会儿话吧。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">我当然要跟你说话。你以为我打电话找你干吗？你怎么了？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">是流感。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font><font face="宋体">他说。</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">你要去看病吗？</font><font face="times new roman">……</font><font face="宋体">你在听吗？我说你是不是要去医院？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">你大一点声。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font><font face="宋体">他在抽屉里乱摸着，又打开另一个抽屉。</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">我们的线有杂音吗？</font><font face="times new roman">d</font><font face="宋体">，你不应该在生病的时候一个人待着。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">让她今天晚上来照顾你。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">多拉德慌忙用手捂住听筒，可晚了一步。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">老天哪，刚才是什么声音？你正和什么人在一起吗？</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">是电台，我按错键了。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">嗨，</font><font face="times new roman">d</font><font face="宋体">，需要我请个人帮忙吗？你听起来并不像发烧。我还是自己去吧。我让玛西娅在午饭时把我带到你那里去。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">“<font face="宋体">不。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font><font face="宋体">钥匙在抽屉里一卷皮带下面。他拿到钥匙了。重新回到厅里，手里拿着电话。</font><font face="times new roman">“</font><font face="宋体">我挺好的。我会不久就见到你的。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font><font face="宋体">咝音几乎将他绊倒了。他冲下楼，电话线从墙上被拽落下来，电话听筒掉到了楼梯下。</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">一个疯狂的愤怒的叫喊：<font face="times new roman">“</font><font face="宋体">到这里来，狗脸。</font><font face="times new roman">”</font></span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">到了地下室。在炸药盒的旁边的箱子里有一只皮包，里面装满了现金、信用卡、不同名字的驾照、他的手枪、刀和短棍。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">他抓起皮包，冲向一楼，迅速地经过楼梯口，做好了与巨龙搏斗的准备。他钻进车，迅速地开动，车子在沙石路上像蛇行一样左冲右撞。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">到了高速公路上他才放慢下来，把车靠到路边，呕出了黄色的胆汁。恐惧消失了一点。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

<span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';">在规定的速度下行驶，在转弯以前老早车就开始闪灯。他小心地向机场驶去。</span><span style="mso-spacerun:'yes'; font-size:14.0000pt; font-family:'times new roman';"></span>

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